Filed under: A day in the life of cancer | Tags: AnneMarie White, blonde, blonde hair, breast cancer journeys, crazy sexy cancer, hair colour, hair dye, head shave, Kris Carr, shave, Telling it how it is, world's greatest shave
We tried to follow the Marie Claire guide and I am starting out light then gradating through to the dark colours. So I sit here right now blonde, or a potato chip
kind of blonde. I have to decide whether to try to fix it or just leave it, after I do another colour in 6 days. Garth’s not so opposed to this project. He even put the bleach in my hair. It was fun, I gues sthe only thing that could be more enjoyable would be if he did his hair matching colours, but I know that will never happen.
I was thinking as I had ‘fun’ going blonde, I believe there really are lots of people out there that hold back on the permission to love thing. I mean, I have wondered for years and years what certain colours would look like in my hair so why haven’t I tried them? Why has it taken the knowledge that I’m shaving it all off to give me the confidence to turn up with different colour hair? How many people out there live wondering? What would I look like with black hair? I wonder if I would be able to abseil? I wish I had learned to play an instrument- Well dye your hair, go find a cliff and have music lessons. Like Kris Carr asks in ‘crazy, sexy cancer’, what are we all waiting for?
Anyway, my blonde, to me a symbol of the countdown to no hair. I am reading a book at the moment, ‘telling it like it is, 23 breast cancer journeys,’ by Annemarie White. One story discusses the emotional wave that followed her hair loss and made me start thinking. I am nervous but I’m also excited to feel these emotions, although remembering blessed at the same time to only be riding the emotional bronco and not the physical one as true cancer fighter cling to. The author, Anne Marie, also shaving for charity pre-chemo felt empowered, taking control, contributing to the community, then flooded with emotion realising that she was losing a signature beauty. Now not that my hair is my signature beauty but I can imagine similar feelings arriving at my door on March 13th, 2010. A little kid in a shop even called her ‘a cancer head’. Oh my gosh, the range of reactions I may encounter through this period are endless. I just have to remember, as AnneMarie states, ‘ your soul and your spirit are still the same you.’
I wonder if this colour idea was to prepare myself and others for change, for risqu’e hair risk. Mmmmm. The sounds of contemplation. Anyway, I guess you all want to see some more pics?
Filed under: A day in the life of cancer | Tags: crazy sexy cancer, Kris Carr, leukemia, little gifts of kindness, oprah, shave, vision board
Well I’ve been reading, or should I say read Kriss Carr’s book, ‘Crazy Sexy Cancer’ all in one day. I am re-inspired. I have a diary of ‘ little gifts of kindness’ and everyday it sets a nice challenge for us to do. So for every day of the new year I will follow the commands of my diary, for example on the 6th of January I will ‘teach someone to dream’, on the 8th of January I will put some money down at the library desk/ or video store for the next person’s late fees, I will bake biscuits for someone, oh that poor someone, and on July 20th I will hug Garth 6 times.
One thing that Kriss Carr’s book taught me (may I just mention that I read her 2nd book first) is that I have to factor myself into all this good doing. I am typically a giver and self sacrificing as many mothers. I feed everyone and pick on what they don’t eat and when I do have my own food they want it and by the time 4 children take a bite each there is not a lot left. I will learn to do yoga or meditation as that seems to be the theme in many inspiring people’s lives, I will also plan my food. I will re-design my daily menu and try semi-RAW again. I’m just baffled as to how RAW works for so many people and not me, so I will start again. I will grow my veggie patch as I cannot afford organic, and I will create a vision board (like on ‘the secret’). Everyone seems to put Oprah on there and end up on her show so I may even try that as a long shot.
In the meantime the you may be thinking that I’m all over the place with my projects?? Well not really, I am still shaving my head for leukemia in March, I have joined a team ‘Central Coast Believers’ and we look like we will raise over $30 000, I’ll have to put my $36 500 ($100 a day) amount on my vision board, I am organising movie fund raisers and have a Bunnings BBQ on Australia Day and the RAW, yoga, little gifts of kindness and vision boards are all a part of the head shave and the day in the life of cancer, so…. I’m not so frantic, just presenting little pieces of my major piece of work.
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